Unexpected Evening

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Tonight, well, last night now since it’s 1:14AM, was unexpected. Not the evening so much as the end of the evening.  My father broke his ankle some time ago and I watched over him while Mom and Sis went to Indianapolis.  I brought my laptop, intending to write a new story, but I got sidetracked (did I sound surprised? Didn’t think so.) and ended up watching the last two episodes of “The Witches of East Side”, Season 1″ on Netflix and 1/2 an episode of “Turn” (2nd episode, Season 1).  When they got home around 10:30pm, I shut off Netflix and powered down my laptop.  That’s when the evening went unexpected.  I knew there were going to be updates.  I hadn’t used my laptop in some time and it has been updating whenever I shut it down.  This time, however, the “loading 1 of 153 updates” was not met with a smile from me because, following that was a “do not shutdown or power off your computer” message that had me staying there until 12:50PM when it finished and shutdown.

I spent the time reading my Nora Roberts’ novel “Calculating in Death”, so it was not a wasted time, but I wanted to be home doing other “home” things.  Then, to simply add to it, I remembered as I walked out the door, that I have somewhere to be in the morning.  So, there goes that time, too.

In trying to figure out how to make good out of bad, or decent out of not-so-decent, I decided to do a post on tonight and how I felt.  I don’t usually feel rushed anymore.  Since the stroke, I take my time, do things as they come and do not get pressured or bothered by waiting.  This, however, for some reason, really irritated me.  Even sitting here now, I cannot figure out quite what was bothering me so much, though I have some ideas.

I think a lot of it is simple.  I just wanted to be home and have more choices as to what I could do when my laptop was unavailable.  For instance, I could simply go to my desktop PC and work or play.  That is what I would have done, normally.  If you add to it that my home computer would have done the 2.4 hours of work in about 15-20 minutes, you can see why I was unhappy.  I would have had time and availability to do a load of dishes, clean up something, read in the comfort of my bed, or to be practical, taken a shower to get ready for tomorrow.  Was I really put out?  Nope, not much.  But, I am used to doing things at my pace and in my own way and that was messed up.

That brings me to the point of this entire post.  When things don’t go our way, we often get upset, short-tempered, or whatever else.  My question now is, why?  It wasn’t that big of a deal.  I no longer work, so whatever I don’t get done tonight, I can do tomorrow.  I have a story deadline, but it is far enough off that I won’t have any problems finishing it.  It just ends up being spoiled…me, that is.  I am “used” to doing thing my way.  So, when it gets a bit out of shape for me, I get upset.  Seems a bit petty.  In fact, it seems a lot petty.  Made me think that if I am this petty over something small, what can others get like over big things and in more of a rush?

The whole thing has now humbled me a bit.  I am not the unshakeable person I made myself out to be.  It was bothering me tonight that it was bothering me.  I guess I can still step back and take a look cause there are things I still need to work on.

How about you?  How do you handle it when things don’t go right for you?

Namaste,

Scott

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  • Elle Knowles  On April 13, 2015 at 9:06 am

    I like that it was bothering you that it was bothering you. Well put! That happens to me a lot lately. I’m trying to not let things like not getting done what I had on my list done. Sometimes life happens and we have to go with it. This was an eye-opener post! ~Elle

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  • rogershipp  On April 11, 2015 at 8:57 pm

    Some of my best days are the unplanned ones. But it does help to have a path to follow!

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  • Good Woman  On April 11, 2015 at 3:06 pm

    I clicked into your blog from a blog party…I think from Life of an El Paso Woman…although I have been to a couple of blogging parties and have gotten myself confused. But, I have to say that I read a few of your posts and find them to be interesting. On this topic I will say that at this point in my life, when things don’t go by way, I might fret and stew for a bit but then I come around to the thinking, “Things will work out. They always do.” I have learned to not dwell on those things because it just ruins by attitude and possibly others. At 60+ I have learned to try to figure out what is truly important and try to let go of the rest.

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    • kindredspirit23  On April 11, 2015 at 4:45 pm

      A very wise attitude. Mine is, basically, the same – I am truly working to not find anything so important that I need worry about it. 🙂
      Thank you for dropping by. I really hope to see you again soon.

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  • mike7sedona  On April 8, 2015 at 1:39 pm

    The same way, after all, we are human – pettiness is still pettiness even when weighed in a golden scale! But, for folks like us, who have weathered scores of summers and winters of life, humbled by helplessness, by experience, by self-realization, it’s a wee bit easy to ‘step back and take a look’ without feeling self-conscious or proud, and that’s the advantage of puncturing the balloon of inflated-ego.

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  • Thumbup  On April 8, 2015 at 2:23 am

    I was like that before.
    Now I’m sort of mellow. It’s like whatever happens, ok go, no worries.
    To go is to return.

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    • kindredspirit23  On April 8, 2015 at 11:54 pm

      I have been mostly like you until this surgery was started to be planned. I think it has gotten to me. Hoping that, once it’s done, I will go back to placid old me.

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      • Thumbup  On April 9, 2015 at 3:10 am

        Oh I see. Yeah, that. Placid old you? Ha! Ha! Ha!

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        • kindredspirit23  On April 9, 2015 at 3:17 am

          What? Well, placid old me compared to how I was before the stroke. I worried about everything and worried about worrying before the stroke.
          Mostly easy-going now.

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