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I am a very spiritual person and try to always understand that no one is bad or good, but merely trying their best to understand and live their lives to the best of their knowledge.

I have two wonderful adult children, who are living their lives to the fullest and best for them.

I live in a small Indiana town with my cat Tamika. I have sold 6 short horror stories that were published in 2013. I published a Kindle book anthology of my horror stories in fall of 2013 and have recently posted my 900th post on my blog. I am working on a novel and trying to get healthier.

4 Tenors Walk into a Bar…I Mean Stage

Today is my late Sister’s Birthday.  Mom and I tried hard to remember and to make it special.  We decided it didn’t need to be special…it already was.  Sis was special and I found out last night just how special.  We were eating at Cracker Barrel (no big surprise) and a young woman stopped me as we left.

“I just wanted you to know,” she said, ‘that I worked with Darci at school and this year she is really missed.  We talk about her every day.”

That could well have brought me to tears if I hadn’t already known she meant that much to people there, just like at home.  Mom and I talk about her a lot.  Mom and her very good friend(s) talk about her a lot.  I even had one dream where she sat on my couch and spoke to me.  Special.  This was a song she liked a lot; I hope you do, too…

Four Tenors sing “Hallelujah”

Namaste,

Scott

PS – Happy Birthday, Sis

One of Those Nights

One of Those Nights

by Scott Vannatter

9/13/2019

So very much happens, sleeps eludes,but remains close.

One of those nights.

Darkness spills through the filmy shades of the room

Filling it with the fragrance of night and things dark and beautiful.

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I sit listening to David, telling of his love for a woman, in song.

One of those nights.

My own thoughts pour forth, silent and sweet,

Forming images of those I have loved in the before.

This starts the cycle again, past to present.

One of those nights.

The story, the saga of all the life I dropped into caring.

Putting myself, all I could bring up, into the desires filling me.

Those desires don’t rage anymore, simply take over, spilling.

One of those nights.

Sleep will come; it always does, well, mostly.

Resting once more, the morning brilliance overshadowing…

One of those nights…one of these days.

-Scott L Vannater 9/13/2019

Best Stories of the Week…August 30th

Law of attraction at work!

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A 10 year-old boy at school was celebrating his birthday allowed to invite two boys to join him for lunch. He chose his best friend and another kid his mom didn’t know. When she asked, who he was and why did he ask him, her son said, “Because no one talks to him.”

At a 12 Step meeting, an elderly woman came in with her Cocker Spaniel. The guard at the church’s front desk told her dogs aren’t allowed. When she said, he was a Service Dog and had just forgotten his vest, he said, without it, he was just another dog.

His boss appeared and after hearing the story allowed the lady in with her beloved pup. He then went on his way…in his wheelchair.

I was coming home from Whole Foods proud of myself only taking one bag that, crossing the avenue broke, my pears and and oranges…

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My Life and Welcome to It (Old Show, new Meaning)

I was talking to someone the other day who told me about several people who were praying for my health.  Thank you all.  I did think, however, that a better explanation of my situation was needed.  I realized that it is normal day to me, getting there for Mom, and much less so for all others.

I have several problems.  I am not complaining.  I believe in all things working out for good and, though I may not like it, I can see most of the hows and whys of the entire deal.

I had a stroke on May 7, 2010.  It was a hemorrhagic mid-brain stroke.  That means that I had a small blood vessel burst in my brain (from BP too high 250/150 and aggravated by my Blood Sugar at 300).  This stroke caused me to have double vision, my right eye is always dilated and my left eyes is never dilated.  I also have balancing issues which are caused by my neuropathy (next) and my eyes.  I had had diabetes for over a year.

I have neuropathy. That is a condition in which the nerves in an area have bad circulation and, therefore, stop functioning as well or periodically as well.  I have 3 types of neuropathy.  I have neuropathy in my feet, causing numbness and loss of balance and occasional pain.  I do not take medication for the pain as it is short-lived, but intense.

The second area I have neuropathy in is (let’s keep it PG) my male reproduction system.  Nuff said.  Ask me if you want more info.

The third area of my neuropathy is my stomach.  Called Gastro Paresis (stomach stops), this condition comes when the Vegas nerve to your stomach stops or slows down transmitting to your stomach. This, in turn, causes your stomach to digest food slowly or not at all for a period of time.  If it is long enough, the food in your stomach goes rancid, sending a vile taste to my mouth and followed (in about 1 hour) by vomiting, then by diarrhea.  This lasts anywhere from 2-10 hours.  I have some very quick-acting medicine for under my tongue (3-5 minutes) which, if I get it in time, can slow or stop the nausea and prevent (hopefully) the vomiting.  I am told not to stop the diarrhea because the bad food needs to get out of my system and that’s the safest and quickest way.  I am getting better at doing things to help prevent or limit the occurrences of Gastro Paresis.  I have been told there is no cure, though sometimes it stops altogether.  I can help by:

  1. limiting my protein intake
  2. limiting my sugar intake
  3. limiting my fiber intake
  4. eating smaller meals
  5. drinking an increased (much) amount of liquids

All of the above keep your stomach emptier and allow it to flow better so it stays empty and food won’t spoil.  It has helped greatly.  I spent, literally, years eating much protein and fiber to help my diabetes, so 1 and 3 have been a big change.

I am now on insulin.  We don’t have the dosage exactly right yet, so it goes back an forth on readings.  However, we are getting there.

The good news is that since the stroke retired me (disability) at 51, I am home and can treat it the way it needs treated.  Being single has helped also.  I have a Mother who is getting older and needs my help and I have good friends, my blog, my Word with Friend games, my fiverr writing, my Amazon for the local library, and my video games to keep me occupied and happy.  Yes, yes, I have my cat, too.  She is a toss up as I wouldn’t want to do without her, but she, frequently, gets on my nerves. lol.

The Gastro Paresis has one advantage.  Eating less and having much less choices (say no ice cream or chocolate) has led to a loss of 23 pounds since April, most of it this May-August. It is a bad way to loss weight, right up there with, well, throwing up intentionally.  However, I am working to stop it and keep the pounds off as well.

The Gastro Paresis is not deadly at this stage.  The biggest problem is dehydration.  I had a few bouts in which I could not keep any liquids down for over 6-8 hours and had thrown all mine up, so I had to go to the ER for saline solution in my arm.

Thank you to all who know, who care, who now understand better.  You are all loved.  I am, often, amazed at how many wonderful friends I have here.  It is something I don’t mind being surprised at.

Namaste,

Scott

 

The “News”

I was standing in line at our grocery several weeks ago.  I don’t go through the regular lines often as I enjoy the diy self-checking lines as much or more.  But, late and too many items, I decided I wouldn’t deal with the auto-voiced machine that tells me way too often to “remove your items” when I am loading them as fast as I can.

While I am standing in line I notice the last-second sale items and candy and magazines that stores place in the checkout area so you can impulse-buy to your heart’s content.  And what should I see? —>

 

I became entranced with several things.  First, was the variety of Gift Cards you can buy.  I mean, all types of stores and restaurants and online places were offered.  I had someone tell me once, “Just give money.”  My opinion on that hasn’t changed much.  If I don’t want the temptation to be to put the money on bills and/or necessities (which I went through time and again), then I figure out what they like and go for that.  Amazon has been a recent catch-all as they can get needed supplies, books, or go for that special something they wouldn’t normally get.

But, apart from the towering selection of forced buys, I saw the “News”.  I mean the magazines that offer everything from latest diets dos and don’ts to who got fired/rehired on the soaps and sitcoms.  People amaze me at times where they will spend their money.  I sell older magazines I have purchased on Amazon.  People who live in New York will, often, spend $7-$15 on a single issue of a magazine that is only a few months old.  I have concluded the cost of them in NY must be high enough that $7-$15 is a decent price.  I usually sell them still in the plastic.  I took the magazines at a very reduced  price when I was teaching as educational aides.  After my stroke, I still got the magazines for a few years, so…

But the magazines on dieting and movie stars (especially soaps) just floor me.  I have gone on and read about diets for a long time, but I use the Internet (no charge).  Most of them don’t work and may even be bad for you.  I have read and become quite the sage of diets.  As for the soaps, I used to watch several and enjoyed them, but to read about the stars and their doings and undoings?  Nope, not me, not much, anyway.

Back when info was slow coming and only on TV (4 channels) and magazines, I did my share of buying a few (not many as $0.25 a weeks only bought 2 comics at $0.12 apiece plus tax and I loved my comics).  Now, with the Internet and instantaneous news, why bother with print?

The biggest thing repeated over and over was the new royal baby.  Why do we, here in America, still love the royalty and their offspring?  Not that our own ruling body doesn’t have its own fair share of news, but that is … different.

And, then you have the “crap” mags that have those stories that are “based” (what a word) on truth…the merest shred of honesty lies at the bottom of some of the most stellar stories on these pages.  “Alien baby grows up in the Heartland” turns out to be about a Mexican child who moved to Indianapolis after finishing High School.  My daughter and I used to get one of these issues and pick apart the stories.  I would ask her (all 3-6 years old) what she thought after I read a short article and she would tell me why she thought it might not be true.  Is it any wonder she grew up to be a psychologist who loves watching TV shows like “Criminal Minds”?  She is analytical and thoughtful.

I was only in line a few minutes and snapped the pictures to remind me to write this post.  Still, people amaze me and I think someone should write about that…oh, forgot there’s YouTube,

Namaste,

Scott

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