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I sit here in my shorts, sans top, sans socks, and stare at my computer.  Fresh from the shower, I decided THIS might be the best time. I have said this several times in the last few weeks.  I wrote my last post here a few days shy of Memorial Day this year.  After reading several other bloggers talking about the holiday, I decided to let my own self out for a walk.  Last year marked the first Memorial Day since Dad’s death that previous July.  This year marks the first Memorial Day with Sis gone AND Dad gone.  I admit it has been hard for me.  But, I cannot imagine how hard it is for Mom.  This is not what I sat down to write, but … here it is. As my friend says, “It is what it is.”

I don’t want sadness or pity or anger or whatever else you think is in me relieved.  I am okay with their deaths, not the best timing for Mom and I, but we really can’t say that for many years to come.  But, there are things that CAN be said.

One is that I am now much more alone than I was.  No Dad, no Sis, no girlfriend, my daughter is very busy at a wonderful job, and my son is in Oregon also with a good job.  I not only don’t blame those last two, I am happy for them.  Truth is I have always been a loner. It has seldom bothered me to be by myself; I don’t get lonesome.  And now, now with the Internet and all, I have little reason to ever be lonely or alone.  I am a blogger, have many blogger friends, some of whom I consider VERY GOOD friends.  I do see good friends here, too.  One buddy from high school, one person who is now a friend who took over the job when I left the courthouse years ago and was introduced by my boss there, is also a good friend as is the boss.  I email, chat, phone, write, meet.  In essence, I do all you can do to not be alone, not be lonely.  But, having half your family gone is rough whether you spent a lot of time with them or not.  I am only glad that I was in a good place with both of them when it happened.

Mom and I now see or, at least, talk daily.  We go out to eat, visit doctors, stylists, get groceries, and discuss things.  We try not to get caught up in picking on each other or driving each other crazy by suggesting the other one do things…but it happens.  I want her to get a problem checked out; she wants me to do such and such.  Yeah, it happens.  But, each night we part or hang up saying, “I love you” and “See or talk to you tomorrow.”  Both of us are smart enough to know that the last statement won’t be true someday.  There will come that time when… But, it isn’t right now, so we say it.

This was nothing like I intended to do for a post…but “it is what it is.”

And what is it?  In my new life philosophy, “Perfect”. All things are because they all work out in the end and helped to make that end happen.

There’s one to “put in your pipe and smoke it.”  Wonder where and why that one came about?  Could google it, but that is, already, becoming/become one itself…

“Google it!” or “I don’t have time to Google an answer.”

But, if you did…



Christmas is Coming!

Well, the season is here!  I know; I know…it’s the 21st when it’s official.  But, it’s the 1st at 3:23AM and I am getting ready to settle down.  I took a picture tonight, the first night shot with my new (older) phone.  It’s an HTC1 and I really like it.  Took awhile to figure out how to get the pics off it and on my pc for here, but it’s done.

Anyway, Christmas is one of my very favorite times of the year and Middletown, small that it is, has its own way of showing we are getting ready for Santa…




I know, it’s not a lot.  The streets have lights and all, but this just caught my eye when I was driving home about 9:15pm or so.  I will figure out how to take better shots, but for no flash, I thought this was a decent night shot.  Anyway, this all takes me back to my young days (man, those were a long time ago).  People are happier.  I enjoy going to the stores in town more.

Some of us, don’t care, however:


See?  I don’t think she appreciates Christmas at all.

Happy beginning of the season,


The Days of Our Lives

I used to watch a lot of soaps.  That’s what happens when you work 3rd shift.  You get up in the middle of the afternoon or stay up in the morning.  My very favorite, actually, was “General Hospital” and I loved Laura.  She and her guy were always in the middle of something, as was everyone else in the soaps.  I used to be amazed wondering how people could get so complicated and messed up.  Then…I got older.

Let’s just take this year, now 3/4 over and summarize for me.  Let’s see, I started out the year still getting very ill (at both ends) for about 4-8 hours 1-2 days a month. Had to postpone hip surgery because of that and the fact the illness threw my already-high sugar off too much.  Sugar was high due to Dad’s passing the year before and my sister contracting 3 different types of cancer.  I, finally, got self-diagnosed (and supported by medical staff) to have gastro-parieses (sp?) which came from high sugar powered by stress.  Had surgery on my right hip on April 17th and Sis had brain surgery on April 18th.  It took me until about the end of July to get kinda back to normal totally and exercise 2-3 times a week and work just a little on the house.  Sis had another surgery and radiation during the summer and we arrive at September.

Now, September brought Drs visits and other such medical things, as per normal now, but October starts things out again.  Sis is scheduled for more radiation as the summer surgery did not get it all.  Then they will look at scans to see if the radiation killed all of what was left of the cancer or if they need to do more surgery.

I have developed such a severe pain running from my hip around my knee and to my ankle and the front of my foot I had to go to a chiropractor.  He helped me with all my complaints except the hip, telling me I had bursitis.  I go home and look it up on Google to find it will “usually leave on its own in 6 weeks”.  Six Weeks!?  No way.  I go to my hip surgeon for my six-month check up review.  Hip is fine, but I don’t have bursitis; I have sciatic problems.  Great!  So, now I get to tell the chiropractor that it is his problem and he needs to address it.  I still don’t sleep well and have a daily schedule that runs from about 1:30pm – 3:30am up and trying to sleep from 3:30am-1:30pm, changing that for Drs visits and other emergencies.  Oh yes, forgot, in September, I took my car in for a “brief” fix on a heat plate only to find out the frame has totally cracked and the car should not be driven.  I am driving Sis’s car as she cannot drive yet, only to have her headlight go out and I have trouble at night when driving.

This is the Days of My Life as the World Turns…I am sure you can come up with similar statements.  So, soaps are not for old people – they are living them, anyway!



A Moral Choice – in a Video Game?

I love the different directions I take based on my, um, personality traits (you can read that as “chaotic nature”, should you wish).  My blogs have run the gamut from love poems to horror stories from family outings to BDSM confessions.  Been a ride!

Well, today is no different.  I have a video game, one of several, which I play a lot.  Right now, I have about 300+ hrs on this latest trip through this game world.  The game is “Fallout 4” (F4) and is apocalyptic in nature (big surprise? then you don’t know me).  It is about a person who goes through suspended animation for about 200 years, missing WW3 and awakes in its aftermath: a bomb-riddled, radiation-lingering, mutated and violent world.  I chose to play a female this time.  I hadn’t ever done that and it does change the game quite a bit.  I imagine I have done about 50% of the main quest.  I tend toward the rest of the game.  Here in F4 those smaller quests are big and small and very many.  In the quest mentioned in the title, called “Nuka World”, I have wandered into a gauntlet of machine guns, Mirelurks, grenades, gas, and a big boss.  I managed to defeat all of these and find out I am now the appointed leader of a trading center.  This center has collared slaves as the merchants, custodians, and such.  The under leaders are 3 very ruthless gangs of Raiders whom I am to keep in line so they don’t kill each other (not such a bad thing) and everyone around them (not such a good thing). I went to one leader, the “alpha” of that pack and attempted conversation.  He asked me if I was willing to show what I was made of by doing a small job for him.  I agreed.  The job was to take a package from a group of “Minute Men” (keepers of the peace) and kill all of them (help his pack do so).  This, then, was my problem.  I play a mostly,morally right individual. In the other part of the game, I am a leader also.  However, there I fight with my group of settlers from about 14-17 settlements to protect them from harm and keep the bad guys (and things) out.  Further problem, these “Minute Men” are in my other group.  In fact, I am their general there.  I could not get it right inside my head to kill 4 of my own just to save some settlers in this other section of the world.  Neither could I simply not help and lose my small advantage to later get rid of these gangs (oh yes, that is my plan!).

My decision was a bit ambiguous.  I went to the gang rendezvous.  My intention was to find out the location of the other group then steal the package, making the killing unnecessary. Apparently, the game thought of this and, to pass, all 4 of the Minute Men must die.  I decided to go with the gang.  I stood back and did nothing while the gang killed the Minute Men.  Then, I retrieved the package AND killed all the pack.  I figured if the Minute Men had to die (should have known) then their deaths would not be for nothing.  I believe (as I died 4 times trying to kill the pack leader) I was not really supposed to kill the pack. I finally left some large mines in the house where he was, went outside the house, and threw a grenade in the door, blowing up everything.

I returned and had succeeded in the mission.

How do you feel about my choice?  What would you have tried?



Fall is Almost Official – Where is Everyone?

Every year, about this time, my WordPress stops.  Very very little traffic in or out.  I, usually, stop writing because everyone else seems to.  But it has been over a month and I have had 7 comments to respond to from over 100 authors I follow.  It just seems, well,wrong, somehow.  I am keeping this one short because of the topic.  Fall will be official on the 21st (22nd?), about 2 weeks.  I know getting back into school, taking care of the children, getting ready for college, and so on just kind of make it a natural time to stop, but, hey, I almost have to leave the house just to know that the Zombie Apocalypse hasn’t occurred and I am the only person left in the world.  It has given me time to do things around here.  My Sis has needed care which I have provided the best I can.  My Fallout 4 world is doing wonderfully well and I am into the levels above 50 and running settlements and protecting the world just fine.  I have a buddy who I play online golf with and have gone through some drama there with my old guild and one of its members.  I am now in a new guild, a small one, with good friends and run by my buddy.

My sister is doing much better and I now visit daily to changer her dressing and wrap her surgical wound.  She has problems with her memory similar to mine from the stroke, so I have been able to console and help her with that.  This has taken some of the pressure from my mother and I am glad for that.

Personal life has settled into an almost farce of 3 sites where I try to meet someone and I find I don’t really care much, anymore.  I am perfectly fine living in this wonderful home with just my cat.  If someone comes along, great; if not,that is great, too.  Probably why I don’t see much there – I don’t care.

Have begun watching season 7 of Game of Thrones.  I always said I wouldn’t pay HBO for the series as I got mad at the way they just left us hanging after season 5 (4?), actually in the middle of a season.  However, Youtube, pays HBO and I pay Youtube, so – not the same!  It is a great series and I have enjoyed all of it.  Season 7 has been absolutely superb so far.

Well, that’s me for now.  Hope to hear back from some of you and look forward to reading some new posts!!!




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