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Highs and Lows…

I realize my last post was about my being “something Great!”.  I also realize how pumped up I normally am.  It  just goes to show you we are all human.

I had a kinda meltdown today.  Nothing drastic, nothing even serious – but still significant to me.  I was taking a shower and had just come off the season 3 finale of “Orange is the New Black” (excellent!).  While in the shower I began to get a fairly uncommon (of recent), but very familiar feeling called “worry” and “stress” hitting me.  I began to have some stomach problems, the water in the shower was a cross between invigorating and irritating and I found myself beginning to get that old “clinched” feeling in  my hands, stomach, and (excuse, please) bowels.

Now, I am (as I said) used to this feeling.  It is what brought me to the bring of exhaustion, brought about such anxiety I had to be decently medicated, made me depressed, and was the basis for my stroke.  Yes, I am familiar with stress and worry.

This time, however, I was able to think it through.  I didn’t spaz out and collapse into tears and all.  What I did was to think about what is bothering me.  All of it:

1)  Dad’s in the nursing home.

2)  Dad may not be with us a whole lot longer.

3)  Mom’s a nervous wreck over Dad.

4)  Sis is not sleeping due to 1-3 above and school starting in a few weeks.

5)  My car is in the shop.

6)  I had a stroke.

7)  I can no longer work and bring in a significant amount of money.

8)  I just had my hip replaced.

9)  I am not dating (not sure if that’s really good or bad).

10)  I don’t sleep well anymore.

11)  My roof has a hole in it and needs to be repaired, but it is raining nearly every day.

12)  Anything else I haven’t thought of so I can have 12 items.

So, a decent list.  I decided God is still in control.  Everything will work out in the end.  And, I needed to do something – So, voila! I am writing to my most wonderful set of friends out here in Blogland.  You are all always so great.  When you have problems, you write about them and you nearly always have great positive things to say when others are down.  It would be great if my top 30 blogging friends lived with me in one city, so we could chat and meet and talk and all…(come on, I know you have, at least, thought about it.).  Not gonna happen, but still…

Look!  Already, just writing to you has brought me mostly out of my funk (I said, “Mostly”).  I am more positive now and will go back to doing what I do and being thankful I have such a great set of people out there.  I would do names, but it honestly has become long enough of a list I would miss at least one person and I don’t want to do that.

So, if you consider me a friend, know I consider you one as well and you have helped out a friend today!



(PS – I can always use MORE FRIENDS!!!)

Life Among the Tested

My daughter is going through that nasty part of life where you have to “earn” your license via testing for State, Federal, or whatever board, group, sect, etc… needs to “prove” you are good enough for them.  For here it’s her National Boards for her practicing Psychological testing.  That’s not the official name, but, well honestly, who cares?

Anyway, this is a humongous test taking hours, costing your first-born, and giving you permission to do what you just earned your Doctorate to do.  I went through all this with my teaching licenses. Side story – when I was taking one of my many teaching exams, I sat down and the woman up front, whose breath was dusty from repetition and so forth, told me that the test would start in 10 minutes.

If I was not in my seat at that moment, I would not be testing.

If I talked, I would not be testing.

If I distracted others I would not be testing, so I needed to be ready.

I had to go to the bathroom.  I got up, could not find the men’s room, so I knocked on the women’s restroom, and said that I had to go and was coming in (there was no one in there, by the way).  I went, returned, and sat down.

Worst part?  I had 2 hours to finish the test.  I was not “allowed” to leave early and had not brought anything with me.  I finished in about 50 minutes, including checking my answers.  I had to “sit” and not sleep for fear of yawning or snoring for 70 minutes while everyone else finished.  Yes, I passed.  This happened a second time, though without the restroom ordeal.

Anyway, I was talking to my daughter about this testing and realized that they need a “disclaimer” on tests, just like on medicines.  It would look something like this:

The taking of this test in oral, written, or electronic fashion can cause:

  • Chest pain or discomfort
  • Chills or hot flushes
  • Derealization (feelings of unreality) or depersonalization (being detached from oneself)
  • Fear of losing control
  • Feeling dizzy, unsteady, lightheaded, or faint
  • Feeling of choking
  • Nausea or abdominal distress
  • Palpitations or tachycardia
  • Paresthesias
  • Sensations of shortness of breath or smothering
  • Sense of impending doom
  • Sweating
  • Trembling or shaking

If more than one test is taken in short order, so that several are taken in any 6 month period, the individual may find:

* Difficult to control the worry.

* Restlessness or feeling keyed up or on edge

*  Feeling of being easily fatigued

*  Difficulty concentrating or mind going blank

*  Irritability

*  Muscle tension

*  Sleep disturbance

Research has also shown that patients suffering from test-taking are generally more sensitive to physiologic changes than nontest-taking patients, and test-taking sufferers are even more sensitive to these than panic disorder patients. Objective testing, (how do you objectively test on test-takers?) however, reveals that physiologic changes between test-taking and nontest-taking patients are comparable. This heightened sensitivity leads to diminished autonomic flexibility, which may be the result of faulty central information processing in test-taking persons.

I know that I had many of these symptoms for many years, especially during college (hmm, and marriage).  It is my own opinion that, for the ease of benefit to the psychological health of all individuals that testing of any type be removed from education and all working situations.  While this may play havoc with the governmental and educational organizations, keeping them from their bureaucratic impediments to our growth and success, I think it is a necessary implementation that will prove out to be both beneficial to the individuals and society alike in the long run.

Tea anyone?

Credits ________________________________________________________________

The above information was gathered (and altered) from the symptoms and such for Anxiety Disorders and has been used for entertainment purposes only.   The source of the original information used was from:

Cleveland Clinic: Center for Continuing Education;  Anxiety Disorders – Jess Rowney, Teresa Hermida, and Donald Malone

Web page: http://www.clevelandclinicmeded.com/medicalpubs/diseasemanagement/psychiatry-psychology/anxiety-disorder/




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