I have not been myself over the last few weeks. I look back at my posts and see that many of them were not very good, were not concerned with my main ideas here: writing and feelings.
I have been trying new things out on here and some of them have failed, some miserably so.
Oh, the views may not have gone down, but I did notice how much higher they were when I stuck to my two aims.
I have been working on defining my blog – again. I tend to change things up (ADD at work in an adult, I suppose). I tend to forget what I started my blog for – a chance to help others see value in themselves. I have expanded that concept, added to it. Now my blog is supposed to run on a bit of a schedule:
Saturday-Wednesday is supposed to be a mixture of something that bothers me, something that amazes me, and something I feel. Thursday is Friday Fictioneers – a chance for me to change and hone my writing abilities. Friday is Five Sentence Fiction – another opportunity for me to write a bit more but still hone my skills. It doesn’t always follow that exact schedule, but that is the deal 5-1-1 (5 about things, 1 about FF, 1 about FSF). It was a good schedule and people liked it.
But, I gave in to the damned aspect that life changes (who’d have thunk it?). I started feeling better and doing more outside of my blog; I started getting tired – again. This led to late days, nights without much sleep, and posts having to be done in a rush, at night, when I was tired. I began to S-L-A-C-K.
I can explain it to myself; I got too busy. I am doing too much. My days are filled, so my nights are squeezed. I even got a little to the point that I felt pressured to do my blog posts.
This came to a point in the last few days when I did see my views drop (perhaps, due to the holiday coming up, but I prefer to use it as a lesson). I rushed a couple of them and chose topics that, well, sucked.
So, here I am, trying to get back to normal. This post is about feelings. I feel terrible; I feel as if I have let you all down. You follow me and I didn’t deliver as per usual. So, here I am, back to it – feeling and writing about it.
What I will try to do is keep back to my original 5-1-1 plan. The 5 may include some posts about movies; it may be some poetry; it may deal with some things that don’t come across as “feely”; however, I will tell you that my intent will be to show myself to you – through my views, my poems, my writing, my reviews. And, I always want you to play a part in it. I love hearing your responses. You are my family and I thank you for putting up with my “boring” lapse into meaninglessness.
I will endeavor to stick to my plan and give you all feelings to deal with. I will show myself in my writing and remember that you are not my audience – you are all, each and every one of you, someone I care for and feel as close to as I can, given what you share back with me.
Namaste,
Scott
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