The Ups and Downs of My Week

I have had an up and down week. There have been good, even great, moments; however, there have been the others. I was leafing through my set-aside poetry and saw a few I thought I would share that are also up and down.

Future
by Scott L Vannatter – 1-23-12

Sitting, deep in thought
Lost, caught between
Knowing best, wanting other
fear of future, of unknown
stepping out, chance taken
Divinity watches, smiles at knowing
Trust begins, journey starts.
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Life Happens
by Scott L Vannatter – 1-23-12

Soft, deep kiss, Touches soul
Embrace the life, the living
Mind wavers, consciousness drifts
Thought moves toward beauty
future seen, not prepared
Listen not, promises made
too late the knowledge becomes solid

Two becomes three, becomes way of life
One leaves, mother remains
tough existence, another steps up
fear overrides, and the good never happens.
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Loveliness
by Scott L Vannatter – 1-31-12

She steps in grace,
Movement depicts awe
My eyes lock onto beauty and its form.
Shape appeals as well as face.

I stutter as I talk, struggling to stand.
Her voice drifts with sweetness over the breeze
Each word rests with love upon my ears.

Hope springs, my heart leaps
The smile I bring to her lips
As I open the door.

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Taking Leave
by Scott L Vannatter – 1-31-12

Momentary pause, my heart stumbles at the thought
The scrawling on the page takes form
before my eyes become a note of destruction,
Our love becoming my love.
Separation of being, loneliness sets in
And I know solitude is my soul.

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The good thing is that God is always with me and it all works out in the end.

The other good thing is that I know all of you are out there and that makes me smile. 🙂

Namaste,
Scott

A YouTube Day…

It’s All Sam’s fault!

Yes, it is, Sam. Yours! Your wonderful post today included “Wonkey Donkey” (http://aspergersgirls.wordpress.com/) and after it finished (oh, I laughed), then YouTube advertised several others.

I forgot what I was doing. From about 5pm until almost 10pm I was lost in “YouTube” land. I went from “Wonkey Donkey” to funny pics to rugby, even watching live water birth, and all sorts of videos in between.

It’s been a long time since I got lost like that, but it was worth it. The longest time spent was on “Flash Mobs”. If you aren’t familiar with them, I will bring you up to speed.

The original flash mob was a group of people who just seemed to appear somewhere different and sang and danced. The people around them didn’t know it was going to happen and … well … wonderful surprise happened! It has caught on and spread around the world; I don’t know where it started.

In the way of leaving you today, I would like to give 3 video examples I simply loved.
1)

Do Re Mi Flash Mob

2)

Paul Potts Flash singing

3)

Waka Waka – Biggest Flash mob in the Netherlands

Namaste,

Scott

We’re off to see the Wizard

Okay, so psychologist and Wizard are not exactly the same; regardless, it was an interesting event.

A lot of it because of the trip, just like in OZ. It was my first Interstate solo driving since my stroke almost 2 years ago!

Not Indy, but…

You know that great feeling you get when you have prepared for something for a long time and you just know you will do great? Well, this wasn’t like that, at all!

I was nervous. I don’t mean shaking, sweating, dry mouth nervous; I just mean that my stomach and brain kept saying, “You know, you can still cancel. It’s not too late.” I left in plenty of time (70 minutes for a 45 minute trip), went during low traffic in Indy, left during low traffic, and paid attention really well.

Still, I did manage to miss my exit while going home and added about 20 minutes and more traffic to my trip, and I did get just a bit concerned on the way about what I would do if I had a lot of trouble and didn’t want to come back. However, it went well; I didn’t have any trouble and I was able to follow things pretty well.

Wasn’t my car, but I can hope, can’t I?

That was big for me. I love driving and traffic has always been a no-brainer. The problems come from my double vision. My glasses take care of most of it, but my night meds made it rough in the beginning just getting back and forth to work.

I found this out one morning when I left for work, swerved out of my lane three times and was pulled over about 2 blocks from work after I missed my turn. For some reason, it, apparently, takes 3 squad cars to do this. Needless to say, it was a topic of conversation at work as many people saw the spectacle. As for the pulling over part, the officer saw my glasses, saw my cane, listened to my story, and said, “I think you need to get this taken care of.” I assured him I would that day. I did make changes in route, in med times and so forth, but now I understand that it was, mainly, the meds still being in my system.

I, of course, felt like one…

So, I try really hard to give it 11 hours before driving and I always drink 1 1/2 cups of coffee for breakfast. It makes me a bit jittery, but I can handle the driving.

A lot of this came about because my psychologist told me that “there will be some brick walls you just can’t knock down.” The job was one; that one I figured out on my own. The driving in Indy thing, I believe, was what she had in mind and she seemed very pleased that I had managed it. That, certainly helped.

Praise always helps!

So, now 4 counties, instead of 2, need to watch out! 🙂
Namaste,
Scott