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A Night and a Day…

This is one of those days in which I wish I had a post already scheduled or another, at least, prepared.  I didn’t sleep last night.  No, I don’t mean I didn’t sleep “well”; I mean, I didn’t sleep.  I stayed up a bit late, but nothing I haven’t done before.  I took my meds for sleep, sat down at the computer to finish something, and then went to bed.

When I got in bed, I was extremely fidgety.  I could not settle; I could not concentrate; I could not dream well enough to ignore everything.  Finally, about 5am, I got up and went into the computer area.  I was done; I just didn’t know how much yet.

I looked through some things, then, in a fit, I ordered online a streaming version of “Dexter”  Season 7 and began watching.  It is now about 5:37pm and I have watched 5 full episodes.  I have watched the pilot of Stephen King’s “Under the Dome” and added it to my watch list.  I have played “Minecraft”.  I have checked email, read posts, read news, and tried to fix a computer problem (bad news when you are tired).  During the last, I managed to knock stacks of things over around my computer, lose all my passwords (found them), and load/unload “Firefox” multiple times.

Oh, yes…I lay down twice to “sleep”.

I, finally, got about 3 hours in 1 hour increments spread out over 5 hours.  What does this mean?

It means…I am exhausted.  Understand that I can’t just lie down and sleep when I want to.  Right now, I am very tired, but my mind is not sleepy and won’t cooperate for a nap.  I will just get feisty again.

The good news is that I am going to Indy early in the morning to see my son and I will need to get up about 8am, earlier than normal.  To do this, I was going to have to try and sleep earlier tonight – I don’t think that will be a problem now.

Thank you friends, for reading this and understanding and caring about my life.  It means the world to me.

PS – Went to see “The Heat” yesterday with Sandra Bullock (Well, I didn’t go with Sandra, but you understand).  Anyway, language is very strong, but the movie gets a 5 star from me for being the funniest thing I have seen in quite a while.



Now I Lay Me Down and Hope…

Click on the pic to read an article about sleep-deprived parents


I tell you all frequently how much I care about each and every one of you.  I was going to do a poem or a short story or some such thing today and get back on my own good schedule for posting.  I haven’t missed a day in well over 400 days and I see no reason not to continue.  However, before I could do this, I went through my normal morning routine of reading news posts online and I found this article on sleep.  Please read – I will wait.


All done?  Good.  If you slept enough last night to get through it and remember, it was a very timely article for me.  I don’t sleep well and I know most of the things that are affected – I am affected constantly.

Some of my battle is in the AM when my meds from the night are still in my system.  I stay in bed 6.5 to 9.5 hours, the meds usually work for from 9.5-12 hours, so I am drowsy in the mornings.  I don’t like caffeine as it makes me jumpy, but I will drink a big cup if I have to be out earlier than I like.

Lately, it has been sleep about 4 hours (which is nice), wake up, get up, eat, go back to bed for 2-3 hours.  I don’t like this schedule but as it used to be sleep 2 hours, sleep 2 hours, etc… This is so much better for my brain and my functioning.

Pay attention to your sleep.  Stop letting “things” get in the way.  You know how you feel after a good solid night’s sleep? – well, that would be great each and every night.  And, if you paid attention to the article, just because you are older doesn’t mean you don’t need as much sleep.  The article indicates that your “sleeper” just isn’t doing as good a job anymore.  Taking Melatonin may help.  Melatonin (I take 5mg night) helps to regulate when and how long you sleep at night. It takes a while to work and you will not feel the difference; you will have to notice the difference in your sleeping schedule.  You shouldn’t wake as much, perhaps, as before.

If your problem is falling asleep, Valerian Root can help with this.  It has more of a sedative affect.  You take it and about 20 minutes or so later, you should fall asleep and rest.  I take both Valerian Root and Melatonin.  That isn’t enough for me, unfortunately, and I have to take an Rx sleeping pill.  That’s what does the groggy thing to me in the morning.  It is also my most expensive Rx.

Talk to your doctor and ask about these two herbs.  If he balks big time at taking “herbs”, perhaps you need another doctor.  I don’t know about interactions, that’s why I would ask.  Be safe and sleep well.




The Legend of Sleepy Fellow

I have been a whirlwind this week past through now.  Tomorrow is a break (well, today now), then Wednesday-Friday is booked again.  It’s not really work; it’s doctor and fun stuff (not fun doctor stuff).  Anyway, the point is that I am busy.  That’s so different from a couple of years ago when therapy and getting there were almost all my concerns.

It has brought with it some feelings of being rushed.  I had forgotten most of those, so, when they hit, they knocked me back more than they used to.  It’s interesting to me how easily we get used to something or the lack of it.  After a short amount of time, if we try to go back to the way we were, we often feel like a brick wall has hit us.

Fatigue does its due diligence on me all the time.  My understanding is that fatigue is caused mostly by the brain.  By mine being injured my fatigue level is very low.  I can tell when I simply go in to get a book I have sold on Amazon.  I keep the books on shelves in an extra bedroom.  Today, I had trouble finding a book I sold.  I ended up looking two different times totaling a little less than an hour.  I found the book, but I also found extreme fatigue.  I was as worn out as I used to be after a full day’s work.  Even the idea of doing what I used to as a teacher daily wears me out.

Yet, with all this, I still don’t sleep well most nights.  It is getting better, however, just when I put a string of decent nights together, I drop in a 2-3 hour sleep night and am exhausted for days again.

The worst part is when someone who doesn’t deal with these issues tries to tell me how to “handle” myself.  I had someone once tell me that what I needed to do was to just do it.  They said that I could if I tried.  I have news for them:  if you still don’t understand, I have an actual physical damaged area in my brain that causes a short in my energy level and my sleep management.  There, maybe that will help – I certainly feel better.

Do you get short with people who have had a stroke or some disability that can’t be seen?

Do you do this even when you know they have the disability?

Next time you get insomnia and drag through the day, remember that this is a normal day for a lot of stroke victims.



Rip Van Winkle had it easy!

Yep! He had it easy!

I mean it! He just had to sleep for however many years it was (20 says Internet). He should try to not sleep.

I find that easy to do, just miserable. Yesterday (Saturday), I decided to try something. I take 3 medications to help me sleep:

The first is Melatonin. This is an herb and your body makes it. My understanding is that is helps, over time, to regulate how long you stay asleep.

The second is Valerian Root, another herb, which helps you feel sleepy.

The last is an Rx (Prescription) called Sonata or Zaleplon (generic). It is also supposed to make you sleepy and help you stay sleepy all night.

There are three things I don’t like about Sonata:

First, it is a prescription, which has to be renewed each month. I have had some problems with this.

Second, according to my up-coming Medicare prescription plan, it will be the most expensive one I purchase.

Third, it seems to take about 12 hours to leave my system. I am very groggy when I get up after being in bed for even 9 hours, even if I slept well.

Felt sleepy, but it didn’t really take…

So, last night, I decided to not take my Sonata. About thirty minutes after taking the other two, I was extremely sleepy and went to bed. Now, the only reason I say I slept at all was that, if I did lay in bed for 4 1/2 hours without sleeping, it didn’t feel like it. But, I didn’t sleep long, nor did I sleep well.

I felt awake at 5:30, but by 7 was so dead tired, I tried to go back to bed and sleep again. I did and in two separate sessions, I got about 3 1/2 hours in by 2:00pm today. It was enough that I have made it through the day, but I will go back on my third med tonight.

This isn’t a complaining post. What I really set out to do was an experiment and it had bad side effects. It did keep me from meeting my daughter and her fiance for the suit fit for the wedding, but she is great and we are doing that at another date. I also did not get groceries tonight, but those will be bought in time. That’s for certain.

My experiment showed me I need my meds.

Have any of you tried to experiment just a bit with meds or a recipe and had it simply go bad?
I hope you rest well tonight. I plan to.


Getting Past It

Well, I did, finally manage to fall asleep last night. I didn’t have nightmares about the movie, either. I, actually, slept very well, all things considered.

Before I go more into that, let me say that there is a deadline I have for an anthology entry that is the 31st. Somehow, today, I managed to get about 1500 words written in the story and finish it in about 2 hours.

Now, tomorrow, I will reread it, proof it, correct, and, hopefully, send it out no later than Thursday night. I am beginning to get this deal of working at home on your own. It is, certainly, different than punching a clock and working until the clock hits whatever.

Anyway, back to the sleep. The way I managed to get that movie, “Trust”, out of my head was to go to You Tube and watch “Tom and Jerry” cartoons until I no longer felt bothered. The two good ones I watched were connected with hauntings and UFOs. Here is the link for the entire 2 hours’ worth. I only watched a few (about 25 minutes), but I thought the first two were very good. Watch them and see if you don’t sleep better, too!


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