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Me, Myself, and I…Hmm…

It is one of those times when my soul longs to speak of things I, too often, try to hide, even from myself.

I am, of course, talking about being single and young enough to not be.  After my second divorce, I got, pretty much, back into dating as soon as I could financially and mentally afford to.

I didn’t date much as I decided to take on the task of getting my education degree and teaching.  This turned into a huge time consumer, even though I wasn’t working at the time.  It was, mostly, online, so I got to stay at home (living with parents at the time) and read, study, write/talk on computer.  There were trips to class a couple of times a week, for about 3 hours at a time, but it was enjoyable to be with new friends and having something in common with them all the time.  Of course, infatuations would happen and not just to me.  I never dated while in school, but did think about it.

So, after getting my teaching degree and beginning my beloved 7 year career in education, I still didn’t date for years.  See, I had to get another degree (online) for my special education license.  As my daughter put it when I was all done – “Dad, do you know that you have just about the same number of college hours now that I had to get for my Ph.D?”  Well, it, certainly, felt that way.

I got down to living a normal life when I moved into my Grandmother’s home (renting from Mom who was keeping Grandmother in her house), and buying it after Grandmother passed.  This “normal” life consisted of getting up at 6:30am M-F, going to work (about 15-18 mi away), teaching till 2:30p, then staying to prepare until about 9pm each day.  I was slow, but enjoyed it.  I had fun with the students, taught as best I could, and had a good reputation at the school.  I began a “Magic the Gathering” (MTG) card group after school 1 day a week, so I got some recreation.  My hip was terrible, I was in pain a lot and it got worse each year.  Finally, we were being moved to a new building to teach and I started that year there.  I was having difficulty walking and had to use a cane.  I had been dating a young woman and it had been becoming serious.  We broke up and I went back to being totally single again.  I soon, thereafter, began dating a woman from Indy I took out the first time on Valentine’s Day.  We were getting serious and knew it.  Then, I had my stroke and everything changed.

After my stroke, I tried to go back to seeing this wonderful woman, but I knew it was different.  I no longer felt the same; I had changed inside.  I had issues, of course, but the real change was my mental attitudes. I no longer felt emotions well, my imagination was stagnant, and my health was made more difficult.  We broke up rather suddenly and I truly wanted to begin dating.  What I found was that, when I went out, I didn’t care for the person as much as I thought I did.  It didn’t much matter “the who” I, simply, did not have those loving feelings I used to have pre-stroke.

Over the next 10 years or so (to now) I was never able to find that person I could really care for.  I was seeing a stroke counselor 2x a year.  She and I discussed this, really getting down to it in these last few months.  I have changed my spirituality and that has brought out a lot of valid conclusions.  I understand that all these “setbacks” were no such thing.  The Law of Attraction lets us know that all things are perfect and that we have the responsibility over all of it.  We even have control over all of it.  Problem is that, usually, we have been conditioned by society for so long that we have no control and just need to accept things that we just coast along.  I am learning how to take back control.  I have things happen all the time now in which I see the good in a “bad” situation.  I understand the forces acting for me in a world in which I, more and more, decide what will happen.  This is still all new to me, but I feel very comfortable facing my growing age now.  I expect good things and they happen.

I am not going to leave the point of this post to go off on a tangent about the Law of Attraction (LofA). I have a page on Facebook (group on LofA) and there are several books I will point you to should you be interested in seeing how this change works.  They are at the end of this post.

Right now, just let me say that I have chosen, now, to be alone and happy.  I lost Dad over 2 years ago and Sis last Jan 28th.  I help take care of Mom (she still does most of it), I have dinner with friends once a week and watch Netflix with one of those friends, eat dinner at Cracker Barrel with Mom a great deal, have most of the serving and hosting staff at Cracker Barrel on a first-name basis, am carrying on my Dad’s reputation as the “Candy Man” by passing out chocolates to the CB crew, play video games at home (one with an online friend), and play Deluxe Scrabble with my cousin 1x a week (He beats me a lot and I am not used to that in regular Scrabble).

So, I am happy, my blog friends here keeps growing and I love everyone now.  My Facebook friends have gone over 500 and I talk to a lot of people there, many of whom I had lost touch with.

Finally, there is my Cat, Tamika.  She and I have been together over a decade and have learned to “respect” one another’s differences.  Life is good…and Death, well, I don’t fear it anymore.

_______  Books to Read for Law of Attraction and a New Life _______

  1. Pam Grout – “E Squared”
  2. Pam Grout – “E Cubed”
  3. Marianne Williamson – “A Course in Miracles” – referenced often by Pam Grout – I have not read this one
  4. Anita Moorjani – “Dying to Be Me”
  5. Neale Donald Walsh – “Conversations with God – Book 1”

Numbers 1 and 4 (and 5) will absolutely change your life.

PS – I know I have left experiences and people I truly care for out of this post.  Know how much I care and never intend harm.

Namaste,

Scott

Youth – Gotta Love ‘Em!

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I saw that it was time for my next flash fiction or short fiction entry on this post.  However, I am always allowing myself to step away from that routine in order to bring to you what I consider a very important item.  This time, it’s about our youth.  I am reading a book by Neale Donald Walsh entitled “The New Revelations.”  In it, one of the main themes is about how we can change this messed up world of ours.  Part of the answer seems to be to quit teaching them the same old stuff.  I am not talking about Math, Reading, and so on.  I am talking about teaching them how to hate, dislike, to find differences in others as a reason to pick on them or ignore them.  I have been thinking a lot about that and how my life would have been changed had most of my world been aimed to help me love the world instead of to fear it and to be angry with it.  Something inside of me kept pushing back at that teaching; it still does today.  I meet so many people and organizations who, whether they know it or not, they keep pushing this agenda forward.

You know it’s easy to see this in something like ISIS or Concentration Camps or India’s treatment of women in so many parts.  It’s easy to see it when it’s far away and has little to do with you.  But look at your life right here.  Ask yourself some really tough questions and think about them and then answer them “honestly.”  It’s too easy to blow off with “yeah, a lot of them are like that.”  Here’s a couple of the really tough questions:

1)  Does your school teach boys and girls to be different in what they strive for? Do boys only have boy ideas and girls only have girl ideas?

2)  Does your church teach that there are those who are separate from you?  separate from the church?  separate from God?

3)  Does your job pay men and women the same?

4)  Do you think that women (or men) are inferior to you?  Do you think that others are inferior to you?  Do you think you are inferior to others?

There are many more questions.  I will let you ponder the ones above and start a dialogue if you wish.  My email is bookman23@comcast.net  Just make sure to put “Tough Questions” in the subject so I don’t delete it out of hand.

Read a couple of books “Conversations with God” (3 books), “The New Revelations” all by Neale Donald Walsh.  He isn’t the only person talking about all of this.  He is just who I am reading now.

To add to it here are 3 short videos about our youth, the ones who aren’t “listening” well…good for them:

http://www.upworthy.com/heard-of-the-ripple-effect-these-young-people-are-proof-that-good-can-just-keep-growing?c=reccon1

http://www.upworthy.com/after-hearing-how-she-spent-her-9th-birthday-its-no-wonder-shes-being-recognized-globally?c=reccon1

http://www.upworthy.com/the-inventors-of-this-could-have-made-a-fortune-instead-theyre-making-kids-happy?c=reccon1

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Namaste,

Scott

Understanding Comes with a Price

I am sitting at my computer screen going over news topics and reading many different sources.  It is a reasonably quick enjoyment I get when I partake in this particular learning session.  I notice that Madonna is 55, same as me.  I see that Julie Harris has died.  I understand that Florida is running out of beach sand.  All of these are cool, but, since going to this once a week full blog post (the other 3 are writing prompts), I want something a bit fuller.

Now, my eyes see it:  an article about a man whose heart stops, they take him to the hospital, his son speaks to him, and (45 minutes) later, his heart begins beating again.  Doctors can’t explain it.  The family is just happy Dad is back.

I have respect for most doctors.  There was the one who gave me depression meds for quite awhile when I went to the stress center.  He was later indited for Medicare Fraud.  There are other doctors who do not sit well with my mind.  The biggest was the neurologist who came out when I was in the ER with my stroke and told my mother “Better get a casket ready.  He’s dead.”  To him, I say, “F*****g A**h*l*.   My sister put him in his place and I dropped his services after the first visit post hospital.  In my mind he is a waste of a doctor.

The biggest thing was that he didn’t understand “why” I was still alive and there is a small part of me that truly believes he is upset that I dared to make his opinion wrong in the matter.  He doesn’t understand.  I am learning that he, probably, can’t understand.

There has been a split between God and medicine for a long time.  Doctors are famously atheistic or, at least, lean more toward pragmatism in all things spiritual.  Not all, of course, but most.  Enough that they have gotten this rap.  What I see is that they are not alone.

I have friends, close friends, who do not view life at all as I do – heck, I have family that way.

I have my dreams of the future.  The difference now is that I carry those dreams with the knowledge that God is right there in my corner telling me to swing for the fences.  (Wow!  two separate sports analogies in the same sentence! – Take that Mark Twain!)

Those who know me well know that I love God and I believe that life with Him (knowingly) can and is a beautiful thing.  He is my friend.  He is someone who always listens and has the best advice.  He has given me (along with everyone else) these wonderful abilities to create our lives the way we choose.  I believe in that.  I truly do.

My life has come alive since my stroke when I figured out that God wanted me not to be the perfect human and not to be miserable living a religion I don’t truly believe in.  He wanted (wants) me to live a full life with the things that truly make me happy and alive.

My job then is to figure out what those things are and to go after them.  I get some funny looks when I tell people I have strong intentions.  I get even funnier looks when I say that I fully intend to be very wealthy and healthy by end of summer 2014.  The funny looks make me laugh, but they are also sad because it tells me that people are just not where I am in my relationship with God.  It doesn’t make me any better, just happier.  The church would have you believe in giving all things up and suffering on Earth for later glory in Heaven.  I think that God wants us to enjoy life here on Earth, too.  So, I am.

My biggest proof:  life itself.  Since I fully adopted this lifestyle of enjoying, praying with intention, and not worrying because all things work out in the end, my life has been wonderful.  Problems? – heck yes, but I know they are temporary and that I am and will continue to be happy and blessed.

For those of you who need to follow a reading path, try this –

1) Conversations with God – Book 1 by Neale Donald Walsh

2) The Magic of Believing  by Claude Bristol (the title may be a bit different)

3) E-Squared by Pam Grotto

Read them in that order, try hard to keep an open mind.  I have spent decades getting to where I am now in my beliefs.

If you have problems or questions – bookman23@comcast.net

Don’t troll on me – I don’t have time for it.

Love you all.

Namaste,

Scott

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