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Understanding Comes with a Price

I am sitting at my computer screen going over news topics and reading many different sources.  It is a reasonably quick enjoyment I get when I partake in this particular learning session.  I notice that Madonna is 55, same as me.  I see that Julie Harris has died.  I understand that Florida is running out of beach sand.  All of these are cool, but, since going to this once a week full blog post (the other 3 are writing prompts), I want something a bit fuller.

Now, my eyes see it:  an article about a man whose heart stops, they take him to the hospital, his son speaks to him, and (45 minutes) later, his heart begins beating again.  Doctors can’t explain it.  The family is just happy Dad is back.

I have respect for most doctors.  There was the one who gave me depression meds for quite awhile when I went to the stress center.  He was later indited for Medicare Fraud.  There are other doctors who do not sit well with my mind.  The biggest was the neurologist who came out when I was in the ER with my stroke and told my mother “Better get a casket ready.  He’s dead.”  To him, I say, “F*****g A**h*l*.   My sister put him in his place and I dropped his services after the first visit post hospital.  In my mind he is a waste of a doctor.

The biggest thing was that he didn’t understand “why” I was still alive and there is a small part of me that truly believes he is upset that I dared to make his opinion wrong in the matter.  He doesn’t understand.  I am learning that he, probably, can’t understand.

There has been a split between God and medicine for a long time.  Doctors are famously atheistic or, at least, lean more toward pragmatism in all things spiritual.  Not all, of course, but most.  Enough that they have gotten this rap.  What I see is that they are not alone.

I have friends, close friends, who do not view life at all as I do – heck, I have family that way.

I have my dreams of the future.  The difference now is that I carry those dreams with the knowledge that God is right there in my corner telling me to swing for the fences.  (Wow!  two separate sports analogies in the same sentence! – Take that Mark Twain!)

Those who know me well know that I love God and I believe that life with Him (knowingly) can and is a beautiful thing.  He is my friend.  He is someone who always listens and has the best advice.  He has given me (along with everyone else) these wonderful abilities to create our lives the way we choose.  I believe in that.  I truly do.

My life has come alive since my stroke when I figured out that God wanted me not to be the perfect human and not to be miserable living a religion I don’t truly believe in.  He wanted (wants) me to live a full life with the things that truly make me happy and alive.

My job then is to figure out what those things are and to go after them.  I get some funny looks when I tell people I have strong intentions.  I get even funnier looks when I say that I fully intend to be very wealthy and healthy by end of summer 2014.  The funny looks make me laugh, but they are also sad because it tells me that people are just not where I am in my relationship with God.  It doesn’t make me any better, just happier.  The church would have you believe in giving all things up and suffering on Earth for later glory in Heaven.  I think that God wants us to enjoy life here on Earth, too.  So, I am.

My biggest proof:  life itself.  Since I fully adopted this lifestyle of enjoying, praying with intention, and not worrying because all things work out in the end, my life has been wonderful.  Problems? – heck yes, but I know they are temporary and that I am and will continue to be happy and blessed.

For those of you who need to follow a reading path, try this –

1) Conversations with God – Book 1 by Neale Donald Walsh

2) The Magic of Believing  by Claude Bristol (the title may be a bit different)

3) E-Squared by Pam Grotto

Read them in that order, try hard to keep an open mind.  I have spent decades getting to where I am now in my beliefs.

If you have problems or questions – bookman23@comcast.net

Don’t troll on me – I don’t have time for it.

Love you all.



Revisiting “Limitless”

My last FSF (Five Sentence Fiction) for Lillie McFerrin was on the topic “limitless”.  The story was, of course, fiction, and it concerned itself with someone who was able to render a huge miracle because he was able to focus 100% of his mind.  My understanding is that we use about 10% of our mind most of the time, and for a lot of that time we don’t focus 100% anyway.  And, look what we accomplish: everything in this world that was made by man started out as a thought.  Thinking does, indeed, lead to creation.

I have done a lot of study and a lot of reading on this subject, the subject of the mind, of intention and its power, and of creation.  It is my full and total belief that we create our world by thinking about it.  Quantum physics is piecing all this together and a lot of science is coming around, too.  It has now been proven that a subatomic particle (electron) can be in multiple places at once.

I would postulate (as have others) that each of us has the power within our brains to bring thoughts into reality, and we do so constantly.

“The Magic of Believing”

“E-squared” by Pam Grotto

are just two of the books that deal in this wondrous topic.  I have just begun to open up the doors of possibility and I will keep you informed as things change for me, too.  The first book deals with it from a time several decades ago.  Pam’s book is more current and contains exercises that help you to achieve this intention power.  Here is part of my journal:

The Experiments

Experiment 1

At 9:48PM on Friday July 12, 2013, I began the 48 hour experiment to prove that God-Force exists.  I began by making the condition that, within 48 hours, the GF would create something wonderful for me.  It had to be something that was not coincidental.  There was no specification as to what, but that I would know.

On Saturday July 13, 2013 at 12:00noon, I began my book-signing at the MPL.  I had been told to bring 10 copies of my book, “The Dead Sea,” as that is normally a good selling amount.  I also had 1 copy each of the other 3 anthologies I was in, so I brought and displayed them with the hopes of taking a couple of orders.  I was assured that I might not have anyone show up and that I might not sell any copies.

When the book-signing was over at 2:30, two things had happened.  First, Barb drove up unexpectedly from Indy to purchase a book and talk with me.  I had worried about her and hoped we could still be friends.  I hadn’t heard from her in many weeks.  All went well.  The second thing was that I sold 23 books at a profit!  11 came from family which still meant I sold 12 to non-family members!  That is, I was told by the library personnel, HUGE, and could be considered a miracle.

Experiment 2

 Around Midnight on Saturday July 13, 2013, I began the second 48 hour experiment to prove that God-Force exists.  This one had two 24-hour portions.  In the first, I made the condition that I would see an extraordinary amount of green cars.  I passed three car lots and did not see one; however, I did see 11 before getting on I69 at Anderson and 4 more by 96th Street, all before Saturday night was done.

The second 24-hour portion was to intend that I would see a yellow butterfly by Sunday night.  This one worried me more as I have seen orange Monarchs (a couple since winter) but no yellow ones.  I went with Autumn to see “Despicable Me2”.  Near the end of the movie, the characters are singing a song in French and, well, one very yellow butterfly was on the screen and appeared several times in the rest of the film.  All of this was still before Saturday was even up.

Experiment 3

Experiment three was to choose something relatively small, but miraculous and intend for it in 48 hours.  I requested to have $200.  I was on vacation at the time in Portland, Oregon to visit my son.  I had been given a little money to help with food and such.  I spent like I do now, conservatively.  When the 48 hours was up, I looked in my wallet.  I had about $162.  I thought this strange, but simply accepted it as the answer.  However, I was still interested by the differing amount from the $200 I had asked for.  After a long sleep to catch up, I sat down to do bills.  I found that I had over-budgeted for two bills: about $34 and $4.  This made $38 which, when added to the $162 was $200!

Experiment 4

 While still on vacation, I met a woman who told me of a miraculous product for healing the mind and body.  I did my research, but was still a bit conflicted.  For experiment 4, I simply asked that I know for certain if this product would help me.

I have moved on since then and have the product now in my home and started it today.

How do you feel about the power of the mind?  Have you read much about it?  What do you base your thoughts on?



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