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Me, Myself, and I…Hmm…

It is one of those times when my soul longs to speak of things I, too often, try to hide, even from myself.

I am, of course, talking about being single and young enough to not be.  After my second divorce, I got, pretty much, back into dating as soon as I could financially and mentally afford to.

I didn’t date much as I decided to take on the task of getting my education degree and teaching.  This turned into a huge time consumer, even though I wasn’t working at the time.  It was, mostly, online, so I got to stay at home (living with parents at the time) and read, study, write/talk on computer.  There were trips to class a couple of times a week, for about 3 hours at a time, but it was enjoyable to be with new friends and having something in common with them all the time.  Of course, infatuations would happen and not just to me.  I never dated while in school, but did think about it.

So, after getting my teaching degree and beginning my beloved 7 year career in education, I still didn’t date for years.  See, I had to get another degree (online) for my special education license.  As my daughter put it when I was all done – “Dad, do you know that you have just about the same number of college hours now that I had to get for my Ph.D?”  Well, it, certainly, felt that way.

I got down to living a normal life when I moved into my Grandmother’s home (renting from Mom who was keeping Grandmother in her house), and buying it after Grandmother passed.  This “normal” life consisted of getting up at 6:30am M-F, going to work (about 15-18 mi away), teaching till 2:30p, then staying to prepare until about 9pm each day.  I was slow, but enjoyed it.  I had fun with the students, taught as best I could, and had a good reputation at the school.  I began a “Magic the Gathering” (MTG) card group after school 1 day a week, so I got some recreation.  My hip was terrible, I was in pain a lot and it got worse each year.  Finally, we were being moved to a new building to teach and I started that year there.  I was having difficulty walking and had to use a cane.  I had been dating a young woman and it had been becoming serious.  We broke up and I went back to being totally single again.  I soon, thereafter, began dating a woman from Indy I took out the first time on Valentine’s Day.  We were getting serious and knew it.  Then, I had my stroke and everything changed.

After my stroke, I tried to go back to seeing this wonderful woman, but I knew it was different.  I no longer felt the same; I had changed inside.  I had issues, of course, but the real change was my mental attitudes. I no longer felt emotions well, my imagination was stagnant, and my health was made more difficult.  We broke up rather suddenly and I truly wanted to begin dating.  What I found was that, when I went out, I didn’t care for the person as much as I thought I did.  It didn’t much matter “the who” I, simply, did not have those loving feelings I used to have pre-stroke.

Over the next 10 years or so (to now) I was never able to find that person I could really care for.  I was seeing a stroke counselor 2x a year.  She and I discussed this, really getting down to it in these last few months.  I have changed my spirituality and that has brought out a lot of valid conclusions.  I understand that all these “setbacks” were no such thing.  The Law of Attraction lets us know that all things are perfect and that we have the responsibility over all of it.  We even have control over all of it.  Problem is that, usually, we have been conditioned by society for so long that we have no control and just need to accept things that we just coast along.  I am learning how to take back control.  I have things happen all the time now in which I see the good in a “bad” situation.  I understand the forces acting for me in a world in which I, more and more, decide what will happen.  This is still all new to me, but I feel very comfortable facing my growing age now.  I expect good things and they happen.

I am not going to leave the point of this post to go off on a tangent about the Law of Attraction (LofA). I have a page on Facebook (group on LofA) and there are several books I will point you to should you be interested in seeing how this change works.  They are at the end of this post.

Right now, just let me say that I have chosen, now, to be alone and happy.  I lost Dad over 2 years ago and Sis last Jan 28th.  I help take care of Mom (she still does most of it), I have dinner with friends once a week and watch Netflix with one of those friends, eat dinner at Cracker Barrel with Mom a great deal, have most of the serving and hosting staff at Cracker Barrel on a first-name basis, am carrying on my Dad’s reputation as the “Candy Man” by passing out chocolates to the CB crew, play video games at home (one with an online friend), and play Deluxe Scrabble with my cousin 1x a week (He beats me a lot and I am not used to that in regular Scrabble).

So, I am happy, my blog friends here keeps growing and I love everyone now.  My Facebook friends have gone over 500 and I talk to a lot of people there, many of whom I had lost touch with.

Finally, there is my Cat, Tamika.  She and I have been together over a decade and have learned to “respect” one another’s differences.  Life is good…and Death, well, I don’t fear it anymore.

_______  Books to Read for Law of Attraction and a New Life _______

  1. Pam Grout – “E Squared”
  2. Pam Grout – “E Cubed”
  3. Marianne Williamson – “A Course in Miracles” – referenced often by Pam Grout – I have not read this one
  4. Anita Moorjani – “Dying to Be Me”
  5. Neale Donald Walsh – “Conversations with God – Book 1”

Numbers 1 and 4 (and 5) will absolutely change your life.

PS – I know I have left experiences and people I truly care for out of this post.  Know how much I care and never intend harm.

Namaste,

Scott

The Way to Love and Freedom – The Way to Look at the World!

Well, I’m bbbbaaaaaccckkkkk!  Sorry for disappearing. I had hip replacement surgery almost 3 weeks ago and it set me on my rear for a time.  I am not back to normal yet, there is some pain, but I am getting around the house with no cane, a cane or walker in public, and can’t drive just yet.  So, I am getting there and this is where I wanted to spend my time – with my WordPress friends!  All of you!

So, to get back into the swing, I am bringing to you one speaker, Pam Grout, of the “Hay House World Summit”  The Summit can be looked at here: Summit

And here is an interview with Pam Grout: Pam Grout Interview

Enjoy!

Namaste,

Scott

A Day of Miracles

I had something happen this morning, then there were two things.  I didn’t think about them too much until I started thinking about Pam Grout and the LoA (Law of Attraction).  So, let me set this up correctly.

I have been dealing with a diabetic specialist.  He is good and friendly and looking out for me, but, unfortunately – I can’t swallow large pills – we had to disagree on my treatment for one medication and I couldn’t afford the other at this moment.  So, I imagined that he and his office were not very happy with me.

Also, I have been waiting on my CPAP device replacement materials for awhile and, knowing it is a Medicare-assisted service, I expected problems.

Okay, setup done.

Yesterday, I received my CPAP items.  I couldn’t really open them until late in the evening, at which time I discovered that -out of 5 itmes- I could only use 1 of them.  I sighed and knew I would be calling them tomorrow (Sunday).  Also, on Sunday, I was to fax the 1st two weeks of my glucose meter readings to the diabetic specialists.

Okay, so the setup wasn’t quite done.

This morning I dreaded having to deal with the CPAP people just because.  In my mind, I am saying, “I don’t want to do this.”  Now, I said this to myself most of the evening before.  So, actually, the phone woke me up (I was sleeping in, as per normal).  I looked at the caller ID and it was a pharmaceutical company and I almost didn’t pick it up.  Not really sure why I did.  The woman on the phone told me she was from the CPAP warehouse and that their manager had, for “some” reason flagged my order as incorrect and they had to call me!  I let them know he was right and we got it all taken care of in about 20 minutes.  They told me to put a return number on the package, seal it, and Fed-ex would be there to pick it up in 1-5 business days.  1-5!  I didn’t want to wait that long.  I told them I would take it to the Fed-ex mailing location about 10 miles away if I could do it today.  She put me on hold and came back to tell me that if I would leave it where it was dropped off (on my porch), the Fed-ex person would pick it up for me!  Didn’t even have to leave my house.

Then I went to FAX the glucose readings and finally decided my printer would scan but not fax.  I worked longer and then realized that there was an email address on the form.  I did the email and…it failed.  I tried it two more times and it failed.  I was upset because, now, I would have to call the office and, most likely, they would tell me I had to bring it in to them.  I called expecting a miserable conversation.  Instead, the receptionist simply said to try this email address.  I thanked her, hung up, and tried it!  Worked first time!

Two problems down before 11am.

I will also mention that I had been trying to connect my pc to my new tv as a monitor as it is bigger.  I tried for over an hour last night.  This morning, I got a little more dedicated to it and searched better and researched better.  What I found was I needed a $10 part from Amazon to make it work…ordered and arriving in a couple of days!  Basically, 3 problems solved before noon!  I normally sleep until 1pm, so wow!  LoA!  I love you.  Can’t wait to up the ante and push through the next level…

Reading a book entitled “Dying to be Me: My journey from Cancer, to Near Death, to True Healing” by Anita Moorjani.  This book is impacting me tremendously.  Wayne Dyer recommends it and I think he is great.  She dies from cancer, goes to the “afterlife”, comes back, and is healed within days.  Yes, I definitely want to read this.

Enjoy your day.  I am enjoying mine.

Namaste,

Scott

I Need Do Nothing – Pam Grout

Not on WordPress, so can’t just repost.  Here is link –

I need do nothing.

Have a Blessed Day. Check to the left side near top for my meeting times.

Namaste,

Scott

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